Breaking people down won't build you up.

Everybody gets worn out, right?
Everybody gets emotionally drained, right?
Everybody gets to the breaking point, right?
Everybody has an outlet, right? Wrong.

I've always been that outlet for people, for some reason. It used to be something I struggled with because I would take comments personally-that people were only saying out of sadness or anger. My mom(whom I love so very much, one of my role models in life. Wonderful story, wonderful woman of God.) told me that God just blessed me with a heart that could handle a lot, a loyal heart, and a listening heart. I really am grateful that God blessed me with the heart that He has. But whether it be my sister or a friend- the comments can get to be overwhelming and I can start to take it to heart. Everything they decide to put on me gets to be too much.

& I'm sitting, empty handed, alone-
Wondering what I've done wrong.

Wondering why I am so tired.

Wondering what I need to change.

Wondering what more I could possibly do.

It hurts. 

I'm typically a happy, bubbly person and I do my best to make everyone happy too. If they're in a bad mood, I try to point out the positives or refocus their attention once they are done letting it all out. Apparently, it can be too much though. I understand that and I always have to keep myself and my attitude in check so I don't get misinterpreted as ditzy or rude.

But they don't understand that I don't have an outlet.
I have to suck it up and move on and be happy.

& most importantly, stay strong.

I'd like to say I have the answers.

But for once, I'm still sitting here empty handed.

*iPhone post. I apologize for the quality.*