Well, today my sister graduated high school. I can't say I didn't see this coming considering my sister is somebody who is determined, intelligent, and knows what she wants out of life. She's someone who I can always look up to and that I'm grateful for since I don't have consistent people in my life, unfortunately.
That being said.. I am so very proud of my sister and the person whom she is becoming and I'm proud of what we have made out of our lives; the 'what ifs' are running wild through my head this week.
What if we stayed in Florida?
Would there be better colleges for me to apply to? Would we be happier?
Would it be a better area? Would I have more role models?
The list really does go on and on.
I recently signed up for some college classes so that I could get my AA by the time I graduate. Yep, folks, I'll be 18 years old, in high school, with my AA and diploma. Now, that little, harmless thought didn't hit me until after I signed up for the classes and all was said and done. Everybody kept asking me what I thought about that and that they were so impressed by that and all this stuff. I was confused as to why, I thought "hey, this will be great! I'll be ahead of the game!" But my parents have also taught me that I should always do my best, so I didn't think about it because not a lot of people understand what it's like to try and do this.
So yeah, Emily, you'll be ahead of the game. You're gonna go to college in August. Then August of next year you're gonna apply to colleges to go get your Master's at!
I think what scares me about it is that I feel so young, so. so. young.
But I'm seeing how life flies by you and one day you wake up and life is different, completely different. Don't get me wrong here, I really cannot wait to go to college so I can be a teacher. Whether it be Special Education I go into or just Elementary Education- I cannot wait! I'm pumped to do it! Knowing the effect that the adults in my life have had on me- though, many aren't in my life anymore- I want to have that effect on kids who want to succeed but don't have the right role models.
(I want to make a difference in these kids lives because
I believe every single kid deserves the chance to succeed
& feel good about their lives-
regardless of any of their circumstances.)
So, even though I am so excited to see where my crazy life takes me next..at this point, I have a feeling it could be absolutely anywhere..but I want to remember to stay calm. I want to enjoy life best I can and be happy and realize my blessings daily, walk with Him daily and grow everyday.
All the answers I had when I was a child, are now
really turning into questions as I grow older.
But I'm okay with that. I'm 16 years old, no matter if I'm in college or not, it's okay if I don't have the answers right now.
"Mark out a straight path for your feet so that those who are weak and lame will not fall but become strong."
