Sadly enough, that sums up what the past couple months have been for me. Boy, is that just a slap in the face.
I wish it didn't, but somehow I got caught in just going through the motions of everyday life- and Christ wasn't part of my daily routine. Even though, I thought He was involved in every area of my life. Though, he wasn't really in any area of my life. simply because, i let the ways of life get in the way. The only result I've gotten is:
feeling so many different emotions- happy not being one of them, yet I choose to act it.
& pure exhaustion- in every which way and form- exhaustion.
My reason for sharing this is that- even though I may not be doing anything majorly bad.. I've realized in His eyes-the only eyes that matter-it is all sin. No matter how high or low it is on the world's scale.. it. is. sin. & I need Him, I need to accept that, once and for all. Putting down my foolish pride and admitting it.
When I had this realization, I thought, well how could I possibly fit it in to my life right now? I barely have time to have any relationships and friendships now let alone sit down and have a relationship with Jesus. It's too much. But.. it's not.. at all. In fact, I remember when I was madly in love with Him and I had the same things going on, I just made sure that I would set time aside for Him, whether it was staying up later or getting up earlier or doing it in the car.. I made sure I gave Him my time. Because even though He doesn't need our time- in fact, we could get out of the way, He doesn't need us- He wants us. He does. He does. He does.
"..take a new grip with your tired hands and strengthen your weak knees."
Life won't be slowing down at all, but it's about
balancing out my time to that I can still take time to know my God.
That's all that matters at the end of the day, right?
